74) Love thy self...

I never thought I would be the type of person who craved exercise over chocolate, or feel like I was being robbed because I couldn’t find the time to work out… I found myself jealous of anyone who was more motivated than I was, but that still didn’t manage to motivate me.

Then one day, my weight hit a peak… I looked at the scales and thought they must have been wrong. I looked in the mirror and saw someone I didn’t know. It was at that moment that I realised that I had to do something, so I put on my runners and went for a walk. I didn’t even realise then the power of ‘now’ and how much of the way I thought controlled not only everything that I thought was possible, but also how my mind had let me justify my weight gain.

I quickly learned that I could find an excuse to miss a session with my personal trainer because of my busy life, or because I was too tired. I felt like I had deserved to rest or skip the gym to fit in other things. And when I didn’t see results, I felt like it was because I was ‘big boned’ or had a ‘slow metabolism…. Inevitably, the real reason was because I was cheating on myself; by not finding the time to work out then by rewarding myself with food to help me feel better. I was able to justify my negative mindset when it came to physical activity by eating foods that didn’t fuel my body correctly and by drinking alcohol to make me feel better after a bad day.

Somewhere along my mission to epic physical health, I realised the power my mind had on my situation. I came across some small tricks from my own experience, from my trainer and of course Google and Facebook pages. I found things that motivated me and reasons for achieving my goals. I realised that by understanding what my body was doing, that I could manipulate my mind to get the most out of the experiences.

They are -

· Don’t make unrealistic goals. Instead of trying to lose 20kgs, aim for 2kgs at a time and appreciate your hard work at every mile stone
· Make working out a commitment by making it an appointment – allocate that time to yourself. You deserve it.
· Always keep your stuff to take to the gym in a bag and in the car. If you don’t do it while you are out, you won’t make it back out again after getting home and will get distracted with other things you think take priority over ‘you’ time.

· A 15 minute workout is better than no workout. No-one is taking notice of how long you work out for; just make that time count while you are there.
· If you plan to work out that day, wear your gym gear from first thing in the morning. You will feel ridiculous wearing it and knowing you haven’t made time to work out that day.
· Don’t be put off by other people who are fitter or skinner than you. We all feel the same about our bodies and cellulite etc. Use it as motivation and appreciate that you are surrounded by like-minded people who just want to look and feel good on the inside as well as the outside.
· The gym isn’t the only place that work-outs count. Mowing your lawns or walking the dog count too!
· Make a play list and pace the intensity of your workouts by the music you are listening to. The songs will be familiar to you, so you will know when the song gets fast or when the chorus is and you can use that as the peak of your workout. When the song slows down or when the chorus ends you can slow down and use it as your rest period. Wait till the songs end before you change activity, and finish the playlist to complete your workouts.
· Compete with yourself. If you see you are 8 minutes into your workout and have burned a certain amount of calories, set yourself a goal to reach a certain amount of calories in the last few minutes and really push yourself. This will help you to not cheat yourself and slack off towards the end!
· Gain knowledge. Understand nutrition and what your body needs. You will soon start feeling full of energy and proud of your achievements. It’s addictive. You will eventually let off steam by punishing yourself during a workout or reward yourself with taking time out instead of turning to anger, food or alcohol.
· Look for photos and words or quotes that motivate you. Remember – strong is the new sexy… use weights; it burns more energy than you realise and gives you the sexy body that you want. Its not achieved by starving yourself, using fad diets or excessive exercise regimes.
· Don’t give yourself time frames or numbers to reach. When you do, you often relax and undo all of your hard work. Instead, use physical things like being able to jog for 5kms consistently or being able to do 5 chin ups and then increase them as you reach them.
· Don’t let other people’s opinions affect what you want to achieve. People will ask you why you did it at first, and then they will ask you how you did it. Be proud of what you are doing and enjoy the moments where you choose healthy options over junk. You will be surprised how many people are inspired by you and want to do it too.

· Exercise your mind and use training as your therapy. Focus on your breathing and let yourself think of other things instead of the pain that you may endure. If you concentrate hard enough on breathing right, you will find that you can almost reach a point where you are meditating instead of wishing for time to pass before you die. You will eventually crave that feeling and then the time that you can stay at your highest intensity becomes longer and longer until it’s not difficult anymore – but remember to push yourself for best results. A bit of hard work won’t kill you, but having an unhealthy lifestyle might….

In the last 12 months, I made it to my weight loss goal and lost a total of 20kgs in 8 months before I started to relax based on other peoples’ opinions (that I was obsessed with my weight loss and getting too skinny) and in turn relaxing my ‘mind muscle’ for too long until the weight creeped up again. Now that I have seen the power of my mind and body, I can get straight back on track and pick up from wherever I left off. I punish myself and work hard for a little while because I have been cheating on my body by mistreating it with the wrong foods and alcohol but then use it as my kick-start for the next goals I set. It is never too late to start and I will never give up trying, no matter how many setbacks or kick-starts I have to do….. I have found a passion, and that passion is me. It is like any relationship, it takes hard work, patience, commitment and not letting anything get in the way of what you want. I am in a relationship with myself and have in turn, found love. I have not only learned to love myself, but also realised that it’s necessary to love yourself before someone else can love you. Life can be crazy sometimes, but if you have nothing else in life – you always have a choice…. Choose to be the best version of you….. And ask yourself – what would you do if you knew that you couldn’t fail?

73) The Notebook

Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Young Allie: It's not that simple.
Young Noah: What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?

72) Success

Thoughts create words, for words are the vehicles of ideas. Words also affect thoughts and help condition and create attitudes.

It's attitude, not aptitude, that affects your altitude.

You can make your mind re-call anything you want, but it can only give back what it was first given.

Often people who lack inner peace are victims of a self-punishment mechanism. God will forgive them, but sometimes they will not forgive themselves. Often people will over-work to relieve feelings of guilt.

People who lack energy may be disorganised by their deep emotional and psychological conflicts.

There's no understanding the future without the present, and no understanding where we are now without a glance, a least, to where we have been. Joyce Maynard.

The way to create happiness:
Keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry.
Live simply, expect little, give much.
Fill your life with love, scatter sunshine.
Forget self, think of others.
Do as you would be done by.
Try this for a week and you will be surprised.

Winners find reasons to ...
Losers find excuses not to.

Success comes when preparation meets opportunity.

Success is often a matter of hanging on longer, when others have given up.

Success is never final.

Search for better ways to do things and you will find success.

Be what you are and become what you are capable of becoming.
Take charge of your life - become the person you would like to be.

Skills are not copyright - they are transferable.

Identify your strengths and weaknesses. Learn new skills to achieve your goals in life.

Your success will depend on your attitude to life.

Everybody lives by selling something.

To convince others, first convince yourself.

Unless you are prepared to take risks, you will do nothing, have nothing, and be nothing.

Nobody ever choked through swallowing pride.

Problems multiply when you take your eye off the goal.

All the skills to solve a problem won't help, if you don't have the will.

Discover the power of praise - it will make your world a better place.

Persistence prevails when all else fails.

Stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
when things go wrong you mustn't quit.
From "Motivational Adages for Achievers" by Geoffrey Moss

That which we persist in doing becomes easier to us, not that the task becomes easier, but that our capacity to do so has increased.

It is easy for others to put you down when they are simply agreeing with you.

Conceit is a strange disease. It makes everyone else sick except the person who has it.

What we get is what we expect.

Say to yourself - Yesterday I thought something was a problem. Today I see it as a divine opportunity to stretch myself and progress.

In our lives we each act, evaluate, correct, then act again.

After all is said and done, there is more said than done.

You cannot lift another soul till you are standing on higher ground than he or she is.

We can't live our life over again, but we can really live up to our potential from this moment on.

Everyone has a gift. Recognising the latent potential we each have enables us to look beyond what the person has done in the past and see that person as they could be.

Forgiveness is giving up my right to hurt you back because you have hurt me.

Make changes with SNAPS
S pecify the situation
N ame your feelings
A sk for what you want to happen
P ay off - will be either positive or negative
S o go for the positive result

Goals should be
S pecific
M easurable
A chievable
R elevant
T ime tabled

Depression is frozen rage - anger that has never been dealt with.

To kill time - try working it to death.

If we are to progress we must go forwards, not backwards.
We can look backwards, we can learn from backwards, but we must not go backwards.

We don't need to look where we are, but where we are going.

Faith will take us to the destination God wants us to get to. We have a destiny.

Man has a destiny and faith has a destination.

If you don't know where you are going, how will you know when you get there?

God says, "If you can see it, I can build it. If you can believe it, I can do it."

Man succeeds because he believes he can, or he fails because he thinks he will.

If you don't have a test, you won't have a testimony.

A challenge gives you the opportunity to flex your spiritual muscles.

When you have a lot of problems, and you think you can't go on -
Isn't it a blessing to find out you're wrong!

Life is like a book. You can't look at the beginning and the end and know what it's all about. You have to live it all the way through.

Discouragement is the last tool of the devil. When he can't 'down' you with anything else, he will use discouragement.

Treat people as they are and they will remain as they are.
Treat people as they could be and they will become as they could be.

Yesterday is past - we cannot change it.
Tomorrow is the future - it is unknown.
But today is a gift -
That's why it is called the present.

How we affect other people is all we leave behind when we leave this earth. Once we recognise that message then we know what we are to do.

Six Secrets of Success
Expect to succeed.
You are what you think.
You become like those you associate with.
Really excel in one thing in life and it will spread to other things.
Education is worth any price you have to pay for it.
Then is then, and now is now. Forgive yourself, and move on and progress.

You cannot teach what you don't know,
Any more than you can come back from a place you ain't been.

Whether you think you can, or you think you can't,
You are probably right.

When in danger of becoming too self-important remember what the mother whale told her baby. "When you get to the top and start to 'blow' that's when you get harpooned!"

When we don't speak up about something through cowardice we must remember, Silence is not always golden, sometimes it's just plain yellow.

It's not just that honesty is the best policy, but honesty is the only policy.

We can choose what we do but we cannot choose the consequences of what we do.

There is no room for road-rage on the straight and narrow.

Selfishness is the detonator for the explosion of all other sins.
It is the hammer that breaks the Ten Commandments.

Selfishness leads to terrible perceptual and behavioural blunders.
It makes a pot of pottage look like a banquet, and thirty pieces of silver look like a treasure.

Sometimes, the only way out is through.

Act with faith. Do not re-act with fear.

5 most important words - I am proud of you.
4 most important words - What do you think?
3 most important words - If you please.
2 most important words - Thank you.
1 most important word - Love.

The focusing power of attention never fails. It is the secret of success. Concentrate. Then go after what you want.

If you have a strong mind, and plant in it a firm resolve, you can change your destiny.

Live more simply, so that you can find time to enjoy the little pleasures of life.

You are immortal. Do not burden yourself with earthly limitations. Every regret for shattered hopes of success must be transformed into the joy of new achievements.

Behind the dark clouds of temporary disillusionment awaits the silver lining of eternal fulfillment.

Accentuate the positive,
Eliminate the negative,
Latch on to the affirmative,
And don't mess with Mister-In-Between.

When you sing
Don't worry about the sound you hear
Or you'll miss the music you could make.

To be truly happy, you have to find a way to give to the world. When you give to the world, the world gives to you. What goes around, comes around.

Go to college
And get some knowledge.
Stay there till you're through.
If they can make penicillin out of mouldy bread,
They can sure make something out of you!

It's only the view from where you sit that makes you fear defeat,
But life is full of many aisles, so why don't you change your seat?

You are the person who has to decide
Whether you'll do it, or toss it aside.
You are the person who makes up your mind
Whether you'll lead, or linger behind.
Whether you'll try for the goal that's far
Or just be contented to stay as you are.
Take it or leave it, here's something to do,
Just think it all over - it's all up to you.

Life is like a hawk flying high in the sky. Sometimes the hawk chooses where it will fly. Sometimes the wind takes the hawk where it will, whether or not the hawk wants to go there. In the same way, sometimes we choose what we want to do in life, and sometimes circumstances happen that we do not choose, but which we can learn good from if we look for something to learn about. But when we are resentful and angry, we miss the lesson.

Pain is inevitable but suffering is your own decision.

You don't have to know what to do.
You have to do what you know.

We do the best with what we know.
When we know better, we do better.

The opposite of love is not so much hate, as ignore.

Don't let a tragic past get in the way of a bright future.

It's maturity that brings "impulse control".

The only person you have to be better than, is the person you were yesterday.

If you've got nothing to hide, then hide nothing.
Be a person who can really be relied on.

If you're not sure whether something is right to do -
Ask yourself how you will feel about it tomorrow.
Will you then think it was right or not?

Our choices do not begin with an action,
They begin with an idea.

If you don't seem to be getting the answers you need - are you asking the right questions?
What questions should you ask?

Blaming yourself or others, or feeling hurt, angry or worthless, mean you can keep the situation the same and not have to move on. Therefore you don't have to make changes. So life stays safe - but you don't make progress.
In what ways should you be making progress now?
What do you do and say to stop that happening?
Isn't it time you stopped saying and doing that?
If you saw your good friend saying or doing this, what would you wish they would do about it?

As long as you have your 'prickles' out, like a porcupine, no-one can get near you to hurt you. You can't hurt a porcupine - but you can't hold a porcupine either. So it's not a win-win situation.

The first stage of a huge shock is disbelief - I can't believe that's happened. As soon as you learn to accept what's happened you are ready to move on in life and pretty soon you see a job that's interesting, or meet someone who looks good, or find a project you want to be involved with, and start putting emotions there that up till then you had been pouring down the hole of your previous disaster.

As long as you are living you will have people who leave you, either through death or the finish of a relationship, but that doesn't mean you have to stop loving.

In pursuit of any dream there will be moments when it seems that the dream is lost. It is then that you must have faith in the person that you are. Believe that you have the ability to overcome any obstacle standing in your way, and when your dream comes true you will realise then what a stronger person you have become.

Hold fast to your memories, to all of the cherished moments of the past. To the blessings and the laughter, the joys and the celebrations, the sorrows and the tears.

The special moments and memories of your life will never change. They will always be in your heart today and forever more.

Although words seem to say so little, I hope they help in some small way to ease the sense of loss that you're experiencing today.

Stop looking at yourself through your own eyes, and see yourself through God's eyes.

We are judged by our actions, not our intentions.
We may have a heart of gold, but so does a hardboiled egg!

Forget about mistakes you made yesterday
The lessons you learned are good for today.
Never give up and think that you're through
There's always tomorrow to start off brand new.

Always remember, look forwards not back,
Believing in making your dreams all come true.
Always believe in the best you can be
And have faith in the things that you do.

There are a handful of people in this cold world
Who can warm the hearts of others.
Their happiness is genuine, their smiles sincere.
At first glance they appear to be like everyone else,
But a second look reveals an extra-ordinary person.
Thank you for being one of those people.

71) he's just not that into you...

Gigi: Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope....

70) Really?

I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours.

68) 50 questions to ask someone new...

1. What do you believe to be the purpose of a relationship?
2. What do you believe is the purpose of a woman in a relationship?
3. What do you believe is the purpose of a man in a relationship?
4. What are your three most worst qualities?
5. What are your three most important qualities?
6. What kind of girls do you like?
7. What can you do for your woman on a daily basis?
8. What does she have to do on a daily basis to make you happy?
9. What pisses you off the most about women and you cannot tolerate in a relationship?
10. Sexually, what do you find most attractive about women?
11. How is your relationship with your mother?
12. Describe the best relationship you had with a woman and why did you break up?
13. How many relationships have you had?
14. Describe the worst relationship you had with a woman and why did you break up?
15. Best qualities to find in a girl?
16. Do you like animals?
17. How many best friends do you have?
18. How often do you go out?
19. How do you have fun?
20. What is your purpose in life?
21. Who are the 5 closest people to you?
22. Do you believe you have a soul?
23. Have you cheated before?
24. Favorite meal?
25. Pretty or brains?
26. Longest relationship?
27. Do you do boy things like mow lawns and service cars?
28. Tidy or messy? Is housework a woman's job?
29. Spooning or forking?
30. Sleep in or get up early?
31. Could you be around people all the time or do you need 'alone time'?
32. Do you believe in affection in public?
33. Ideal date and who pays?
34. Do you believe in marriage and kids?
35. Your ideal woman celebrity?
36. Man crush?
37. Sweet or savory?
38. Full price or chuck out rack?
39. Brand you buy the most?
40. Thing that makes you feel crazy happy?
41. What makes you emo?
42. Girl that orders steak or salad?
43. Is honesty the best policy even if it will hurt someone?
44. What is your first impression of me and How would you describe me to your mother?
45. How would you describe your version of a normal life?
46. Is all fair in love and war?
47. Hold back and not get hurt/ disappointed or jump in head first and take the opportunity while it lasts?
48. Do you keep you friends and people you are seeing separate or want to introduce them to each other?
49. Live to work or work to live?
50. Live basically and modestly or have more money than you can spend?

66) changing the way you think...

“Whatever you hold in your mind will tend to occur in your life. If you continue to believe as you have always believed, you will continue to act as you have always acted. If you continue to act as you have always acted, you will continue to get what you have always gotten. If you want different results in your life or your work, all you have to do is change your mind.”

Missing you could turn from pain to pleasure, if I knew you were missing me too. ~Author Unknown

60) My plan

Be a good mum- do everything I can to give my boy a stable life with people around him who love and encourage him...
Study- Cert III and Diploma in Children's Services then Cert IV in Training and Assessment
Start a business or 2- Drug and Alcohol Screening Services and an RTO to teach everything I'm qualified in
Start enjoying life- buy a boat, go camping... and take my boy on a holiday... Do festivals! Have fun!
Go to uni- be a midwife
Make new friends and have fun with my old ones- Make some memories!
Be extraordinary- Try my hardest to be an inspiring and dedicated person, mother and friend...

59) :)

I need this!!! It could almost solve all my problems!! http://item.mobileweb.ebay.com.au/viewitem?itemId=130677363197

56) Scarred for life...

54) Thank god for Celine

ONLY ONE ROAD
I'm looking back through the years
Down this highway
Memories, they all lead up to this one day
And many dreams lost along the way
Haunt me still
I guess they always will

When love was too much to bear
I just left it there
But here I stand face to face
With this heart of mine

Livin' without you I only fall behind
We had a love most people never find
All this time I never realized
And the courage I finally found
Has made me turn around

[Chorus]
There is only one road I'm walkin'
Only one lifetime one heart to guide me
[- From :http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/celine-dion-lyrics/only-one-road-lyrics.html -]
Only one road I'm walkin'
But I'm gonna run back, I'm gonna run back
'Cause I need you right here
Beside me

I can still hear the song of your laughter
I can still taste the sorrow of your tears
We said goodbye but our hearts did not hear
Now my love there's nothing left to fear
With all my heart put me through
It leads me back to you

[Chorus]

[Chorus]

But I'm gonna run back, I'm gonna run back
'Cause I need you right here
Beside me



FOR YOU TO STILL LOVE ME
I understood all the words, I well understood, thanks
Reasonable and new, that's the way here
Things have changed, that flowers get fade
That the time before, was the time before
If all zap and tire, loves also go by

You must know

I'll go get your heart if you take it somewhere else
Even if in your dances others dance your hours
I'll go get your soul in the colds in the flames
I'll cast a spell on you for you to still love me

Shouldn't begin tease me touch me
Shouldn't give so much I don't know how to play
They say that today, they say others do so
I'm not the others
Before we attach to the other, before we spoil each other

I want you to know
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/celine-dion-lyrics/for-you-to-still-love-me-lyrics.html]

I'll go get your heart if you take it somewhere else
Even if in your dances others dance your hours
I'll go get your soul in the colds in the flames
I'll cast a spell on you for you to still love me

I'll find languages to sing your praises
I'll make my luggage for infinite vintages
Magic spells from African priests
I'll say them without remorse for you to still love me

I'll name myself queen for you to hold me
I'll make myself new to let the fire restart
I'll become these others who give you pleasure
Your games will be ours if that's your wish
More brilliant more beautiful for another spark
I'll change myself into gold for you to still love me

DONT SAY GOODBYE
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you

I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
[- From :http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/celine-dion-lyrics/don_t-say-goodbye-lyrics.html -]
Believe me when I say
It's hard to say goodbye

I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
TELL HIM
I'm scared, so afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak if I tremble when I speak?
Ooh, what if there's another one he's thinking of?
Maybe he's in love, I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel, I don't know what to do

I've been there with my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance to love him pass you by

Tell him, tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper tender words so soft and sweet
I'll hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him with the gentleness you feel inside, I feel it
Your love can't be denied, the truth will set you free
You'll have what's meant to be, all in time you'll see

Ooh, I love him, then show him
( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/celine-dion-lyrics/tell-him-lyrics.html )
Of that much I can be sure, hold him close to you
I don't think I could endure if I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

Tell him, tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows

Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Your faith will lead love where it has to go

Tell him, tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper, whisper words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Ooh, never let him go

I BELIEVE IN YOU
Lonely, the path you have chosen
A restless road, no turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know, don't let go, be strong

Follow your heart, let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you
Follow your dreams, be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Tout seul, tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert a l'univers
Poursuis ta quête sans regarder derrière
N'attends pas, que le jour se lève

Suis ton étoile Va jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/celine-dion-lyrics/i-believe-in-you-lyrics.html )
Si tu crois, si tu crois, si tu crois en toi
Suis ta lumière n'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je crois, que je crois, que je crois en toi

Someday I'll find you, someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close I'll know that it's true

Follow your heart, let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you
Follow your dreams, be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe, I believe, I believe in you
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

THATS THE WAY IT IS
I can read your mind and I know your story
I see what you're going through
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find a way, yeah

So don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby, don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Cause love's gonna conquer it all, all

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

That's the way it is
That's the way it is, babe
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is.

THINK TWICE
Don't think I can't feel there's something wrong
You've been the sweetest part of my life so long
I look in your eyes, there's a distant light
And you and I know there'll be a storm tonight
This is getting serious
Are you thinking 'bout you or us

Don't say what you're about to say
Look back before you leave my life
Be sure before you close that door
Before you roll those dice
Baby think twice

Baby think twice for the sake of our love, for the memory
For the fire and the faith that was you and me
Babe I know it ain't easy when your soul cries out for higher ground
'Cos when you're halfway up, you're always halfway down
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But baby this is serious
Are you thinking 'bout you or us

Don't say what you're about to say
Look back before you leave my life
Be sure before you close that door
Before you roll those dice
Baby think twice

Baby this is serious
Are you thinking 'bout you or us

Don't say what you're about to say
Look back before you leave my life
Be sure before you close that door
Before you roll those dice

Don't do what you're about to do
My everything depends on you
And whatever it takes, I'll sacrifice
Before you roll those dice
Baby think twice

53) Void

I have removed you. There is barely a trace that I ever shared my life with you. There are no pictures on the walls, or things of yours on the floor... There are only memories and the emptiness in my heart left. Now I will just create order in my life. Structure. Everything in its place. Keep busy. Leave myself without a second for me to think of what we had and what I have to learn to live without...
And I will

52) I love you...

51) Stage 6- Recovery...

We cannot seem to step apart without stepping on our own hearts... Every movement that takes things closer to the end of it all. Control. Who has the control of the situation? Who can be the most stubborn or self righteous? Words just getting miscontrewed for the sake of trying to pass the blame on to one another. Spite and frustration. Helplessness. Limbo. Continuously revisting each issue, each emotion, each time and trying to find some sense. To understand. To find peace....

You are in a bad place. I realise that you are worse off than me emotionally. I once had enought faith for the both of us, but now you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. By walking away from me, you are walking away from my faith. I live by quotes and sayings, finding my strength in having a plan but believing it leads us to the next amazing thing no matter how much pain has to come first.

I AM broken hearted, and I AM a little angry and hurt that you can't give me another try. I have never betrayed you. I would never betray you....

I am terrified for you. I want to comfort you and make it alright again. I want you to believe in yourself. I am just collateral damage in your own self destruction. This was nothing that I did, and there is nothing more that I could have done.

BUT I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU... I would never turn you away if you were to come to me. I would support you through anything. No amount of time would ever go by that if you came to me- I would do anything for you. I just pray that you find the strength to pick yourself up and dust yourself off and channel your stubborness into a success. I never want to see you fail and know that you can make it through anything and are more than capable of achieving everything. You just need to believe in yourself.

I will never change who I am.... I know exactly who I want to be. I don't care that I begged you to take me back or that you have all the power and I have none. I love you and don't want to you to walk out of my life. There is a difference in retaliation and taking action. I was only doing what I felt you just weren't strong enough to do... I am just trying to put your decisions into action so that I can get through. I need a new plan and I can't make one without you in it- when I feel like there is still hope...

But, no matter what happens, or how you perceive my actions.....
I promise, I will never let you down.... I am ME and 'This Too Shall Pass'
XO

50) Stage 5- Acceptance.... I am responsible for how I feel... :)

"A loving relationship is one in which the loved one is free to be himself - to laugh with me, but never at me; to cry with me, but never because of me; to love life, to love himself, to love being loved. Such a relationship is based upon freedom and can never grow in a jealous heart." ~ Leo F. Buscaglia

"People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges." ~ Joseph F. Newton Men

"Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow." ~ Swedish Proverb

" You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." ~ Dr. Seuss

"To the world you are one person, but to one person you are the world." ~ Unknown

"To dream anything that you want to dream. That's the beauty of the human mind. To do anything that you want to do. That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits. That is the courage to succeed."

"Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."

"You largely constructed your depression. It wasn't given to you. Therefore, you can deconstruct it."  ~ Albert Ellis

“Measure yourself by your best moments, not by your worst. We are too prone to judge ourselves by our moments of despondency and depression.”  ~ Robert Johnson

"Every trial endured and weathered in the right spirit makes a soul nobler and stronger than it was before."  ~ James Buckham

"Enthusiasm is followed by disappointment and even depression, and then by renewed enthusiasm."  ~ Murray Gell-Mann

"Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened."  ~ Dr. Seuss

“The very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof.” ~ Barbara Kingsolver

“You've got to have hope. Without hope life is meaningless. Without hope life is meaning less and less.”  ~ Unknown Author

"If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving, you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all. And so today I still have a dream."  ~Martin Luther King, Jr.

“Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.”  ~ Dale Carnegie

“Hope is always available to us. When we feel defeated, we need only take a deep breath and say, "Yes," and hope will reappear.”  ~ Monroe Forester

“Hope is the power that gives us the power to step out and try.”  ~ Unknown Author

49) Loving me, loving you

I let people take me for granted constantly, never actually standing up for what I want or saying... No, I deserve better than this. I let people over step the boundaries and trust too easily. Even if that person has hurt and betrayed me in the past, I forgive and forget the moment they want to come into my life. I try not to hang onto too much resentment or hatred because I believe it destroys your soul...

 I guess I need to find that balance throughout my life to be the person I want to be but not set myself up for disappointment at the same time. I am always grasping that bit of hope that things will always turn out ok. I want to be a believer in life, luck and destiny. I want to make positive decisions and choices. At the end of it all, I want to know I have loved and lived life as genuinely and passionately as I could and impacted on as many people as I could too... I want to be remembered as someone who would do anything for you, you could go to for anything, that loved unconditionally and helped people to believe in themselves and believe in what was out there for them...

I layed in bed last night thinking... I could live forever as it is, just me and my boy. He could be my best friend and child too... I could give him all of my time and energy instead of having to juggle that by being in a relationship with someone else as well. I would be happy enough just having my little man... He is the most important thing in my life...

But then I thought... I will always be a Mum, but my son probably only needs me for another 15 years and then on and off throughout his life. What will that mean for me? I deserve to have someone love me and have a partner and best friend in someone else. It isn't fair to invest all of that responsibility onto my son either.

For me, I choose to be with the person I love, as well as be a Mum. That person has already made my life better for all this time and I want that for the rest of my life. I choose him, for me. I deserve to be loved by him and share my life with him, and then be everything I need to be for everyone else. He is the ying to my yang. He completes me.

I just hope he feels the same about me and realises it... Soon.

48) Just. Choose. Me.

I don't think I can keep my shit together for much longer... Just love me or let me go...

47) Who am I? What do I believe in? What do I love?

I am me.. I have no needs of my own. I believe in you. I love you. And I keep taking blow after blow... Rejected then hopeful then desperate then rejected.... I am desperate. Desperately in need to free myself from your love and my own dilusion of happily ever after.

46) In the name of love...

I feel hopeful. You can't seem to do what you need to do to make this breakup official. We love each other more than we ever imagined we would. It feels so right to be together. Is it possible that we can make it through this? You can't seem to walk away from me, but are you just using the fact that I would never ask you to go to your advantage? Are you getting the best of both worlds.... and I'm in it until I ask him to stay here with me? I feel like I need to ride it out, because having you in my life like this feels so right, like we could fix this and it be ok again. I keep thinking that I am hearing your keys in the door or waiting for my phone to ring... but yet I am here alone. I just want you here with me. Not because I am lonely without you here, but because we in love with each other. We deserve to be happy together. I have to give you the ultimatum soon though, I'm scared to ask in case you still don't choose me. You can have all of me, or none of me... and I deserve the chance to make you happy, like I would be if you were to walk back into my life for good.

45) Stage 4- Depression...Just you.....

I am wishing for a different life, when all I need is just this one... With you in it...